I’ve been feeling waves of emotion as a prepare to leave the country, one of them being; I’m not doing enough. I feel restless. I feel a bit worthless and unworthy. I feel locked inside too much. Because I have been trying to only study I guess maybe I’m stir crazy. I really needed something new to do. I have always wanted to learn to skate but occasionally the fear of failing stops me. I decided, fall down. Fall down and pick yourself up. This is much like my life. Fall down, get back up. So I had day one of skating the other day and felt so alive. I need to get back out again and learn some more!