悲恋

悲恋 (ひれん) means ‘sad love’ in Japanese.

Are those my feelings? I don’t really know. I guess I’m sad I will be lonely again. But I should accept that. After all… I want to be in Japan to learn to fully take care of myself with out leaning on others. Since coming to college I had always had a boyfriend to lean on. I suppose I let myself get weak. Unfortunate how we do that.

Then I slipped up and let myself make a best friend. But of course they must leave to pursue their dreams. I need to learn to stop doing these things. Love from a distance! I can do that.

The song says ‘blame it on the weather, but I’m a mess’, and maybe that is my problem. I have already realised I must start eating well and working out again to help improve this funk. I must keep myself distracted in healthy ways now that the semester has begun again. It’s crazy how overwhelmed I am on only the second day.

But for tonight I will sulk. Enjoy the sulky photos~

(Warning: I don’t consider these ‘nude’ but that’s simply me. If you aren’t into skin that’s fine, but this is tonight’s expression)

Oh yeah… I sadly cut my hair…

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