I really need to start taking more pictures again! I was looking through my blog last night, and I used to post so many pictures! I’ll do my best to start doing that again after this post:)
I guess for now I’m stressing about change. I can’t go into the details for privacy reasons, but in the next couple of weeks things are seriously going to change for me.
I’ve always thought; everyone leaves. No matter what I do, I will be left alone. It’s I guess something I’ve accepted for myself, but this time I want to make it a positive thing. As of today I have three jobs for the summer! The one I have in a biology lab, a weekend nursery job, and a daycare teacher position. The last one makes me nervous because it’s the one I actually need to learn and practice, but I have a hands on interview next week, and hopefully start training after. So I hope it goes well. The lead lady said she thinks it will be an amazing learning experience for me since I want to teach in Japan.
So I have those things to keep me busy, and though I’m terrified of over working myself and causing myself great anxiety again, I feel like I’m ready for the challenge. I want to save up money to study abroad, and of course rent next year! It’s not easy when your parents don’t help you out; as I’m sure many people know! The college struggle is real!
But in this time of growth for me, I’m worried of change. How much will I change? Will I learn that I can simply take care of myself? Will this lead me to wanting to be alone? I’m not sure… And if it’s one thing I do know; not knowing of change scares the hell out of me.
But I’m trying to stress about it! All I can do is do my best, and hope for the best!
Also, I posted a new video on my youtube; cupoftee1000; about “feeling different”. I’ll probably link here eventually, but if anyone wants to check it out it’s there for now.:)
Forever grateful of you guys<3
Hopefully photography soon!!